btp, pt 4
it’s all getting better, but still a good amount of pain. today’s three weeks out from the surgery, and i already have decent range of motion. doing those exercises, religiously. only did once today, though, cause my physical therapist really moved my shoulder in every direction this morning. and that made me super sore. so i am pleased with myself, that i actually took it easy (pretty much) for the rest of the day. feels like baby steps, in changing (in particular) the go-to emotions/memories associated with a behavior — at least the guilt part associated with taking time off of meaningful work. took a long time, but i finally grew to associate art as meaningful work. and now physical rehab. this is me being pleased with myself. ;-)
got excited watching the caps tonight. not cause of their playing, but nhl had teamed with these animators to live-animate the actual game as it was occurring. with characters from a cartoon that bro-in-law mike (mccafferty) previously wrote for and voice-acted on. the creators explained the whole process during intermission, pretty cool. technologically. how funny and wild we thought it was in the beginning, and then how quickly we adapted to watching the game that way. hell, in some ways, we preferred it. cause yeah, we have lost all hope for the caps this year. at the point where it’s a nice surprise if they win.
did go out to watch my CBL team play in the MAWHL finals up in frederick. felt good to be contributing in some small part to the effort. and no, i’m not happy we ended up in last place in the league. but i’m also not torn up about it. it means so much more to me to be playing with people who i like, and who like and encourage me. my former team lost in the finals, so they’re second in the league. definitely a competitive, talented team. don’t really miss them anymore. found the perfect team for me.
making aaron a playlist for his bday, of selected songs from some recent album purchases of mine. my 2023 version of the OG mixtape, in a way that feels right and personal: actually pulling the songs from my hard drive (i keep a copy of all music on my hard drive) and then zipping it down so i can email it. i think most people just share playlists now. but this feels a little more old-school in that it has an element of being outside the cloud. less abstract. gonna stop writing now. arm’s hurting.