we're ok. in fact, we're good.

colbert is amazing. and i could listen to jon batiste tickle the keyboard for hours. the episode below, from his back yard (the day after he did one in his bubbly bathtub — full suit and tie) actually made me laugh out loud. watched fallon and kimmel’s home shows also, and they had some cute bits, but colbert takes it to a whole different level. gosh i love this man. wasn’t sure how i would get by in a world without jon stewart, and yeah i still miss him. but colbert is his brother from a catholic mother that keeps me giggling. john oliver too, but colbert puts the chocolate chips in the cookies. especially now.

so this is where i was last thursday: 

part of me thinks, what if this is it again? like how everything changed, it really did, after 9/11. will everything really change again, in such a major way, after coronavirus? are we in the middle of a major change? if we are, well, then we will adapt as a people like we always do. if we aren’t and this will go back to a “normal” as such, and trump does leave, then it will feel like we’ve been on the precipice anyway. we’ve been waiting for (hoping not, but kinda expecting) the disaster we knew was coming the night that trump was elected. embarrassed for thinking that way, though, cause alarmists are so annoying to me. if something happens, it does. being alarmist is overkill. but i know that somewhere in the middle of there is the right path. alarmist … carefree. accept the information that is true. try not to react until digesting the entire scenario about consequences, etc. take more time and i’ll be happier with the decision? that’s kinda bullshit. sometimes i just know the right decision and sitting and thinking about it is pointless. most of this i can’t prevent. no need to feel guilty for not doing more. 

and this is where i was on saturday:

it’s all changed of course. bagel store open. some places open but everyone’s home now. and jose andres is closing his restaurants and paying his employees but also making food and handing it out as needed to hungry people. some employees will probably stay. wonder if he needs/wants volunteers? what a good guy.

reading is a good idea right now.

and here i am today, 18 march. 

i do see an end to it. at some point in the next couple of months. meanwhile, i’ve got my kids (and lauryn) here with me, an ample supply of hard, dry cider and weed. making it work. just like everyone out there. and so many acts of human kindness almost outweigh the idiocy of our president. on the other hand, went for my mammogram yesterday and they wouldn’t let me in because i was in norway 13 days ago, where they had ONE, yes one positive test at that point. way fewer than we had here then. and of course they didn’t tell me anything about that when i made the appointment yesterday morning. frustrating, but i’ll deal.

went for a skating clinic on saturday early, while the rink was still open. went to the gym on monday early, while the gym was still open. walked five miles yesterday and did an online yoga class (really good one too) with my regular circle yoga teacher kellie. finished lisa taddeo’s three women, cringy, delving, annoying nonfiction showing the lengths we, as women, will go to for fulfilling sex and affection. participated in a zoom artomatic board meeting (no site yet). watched the dropkick murphys stream a live saint pat’s concert from an empty studio in boston. working for clients as usual. and making art. here’s another in my boobs and butts series.

today’s sunrise is beautiful. feeling positive about what the day will bring. want to feel calm? watch this for a little bit.