right here, right now (part three)
he actually wants to MANDATE that all federal buildings be designed in the classical style! can you believe this shit? seriously, what must his brain contain? did money warp him from human to blob of ego? some serious dictator crap here. i mean, gaslighting all along, many fears realized, insanity the norm. which we said, again and again, couldn’t happen. this is NOT NORMAL. and he will probably be in for another four years. what will our world resemble at the end of that? devolved so much since january 2017, as a society, as people, as humans. caging children, preventing refugees, cutting aid to puerto rico, on and on and on, lying ALL THE TIME about anything and everything.
good time to be reading marcus aurelius’ meditations, huh? the antithesis of our current ‘leader,’ although his better-than-thou complex fits right in. but the stoics used their power for improving the common welfare (unless you were a slave) and suppressing emotion for the greater good. is this where gene roddenberry got spock and vulcans?
“in a sense, people are our proper occupation. our job is to do them good and put up with them.”
and
“ what is divine deserves our respect because it is good; what is human deserves our affection because it is like us. and our pity too, sometimes, for its inability to tell good from bad — as terrible a blindness as the kind that can't tell white from black.”
and
“the only thing that isn't worthless: to live this life out truthfully and rightly. and be patient with those who don't.”
fitting right in, i’ve assured my soma supply. officially a maryland medical marijuana card holder. walked into a pot (oops, medical cannabis) store a couple blocks from my house in the old fusion yoga space. now decorated in low-key eco-friendly chic, all the bud, tincture, pre-rolls, paraphernalia displayed in attractive cases and shelves. give it three years to be recreationally legal in maryland. sad to say, does help deal with current events.
overall feeling now: melancholy (but why should all the political stuff matter? it is what it is). bits of depression and not fighting it, letting it flow through, and i’m forgiving myself and letting myself feel sad. regular work, reading, weed, allowing the escape. and of course hockey and yoga. and swimming. so yeah, there’s guilt but also the past proves that it will show up and i might as well deal with it now. so i am. not psychoanalyzing it. just feeling it. but looking around, how can one NOT be depressed? yes health yes kids yes privilege. but friggin classical style buildings only? events in the world suck. even though many people don’t.
this is the circular thinking.
death and taxes.
idea for a piece replacing all of trump’s tweet insults with positive reinforcement. started looking at his tweets. just can’t. but marxe had an idea — maybe one day at a time. can try that.
they’re tearing down the house two blocks east. always improving, right? for another millionaire to move in. it’s where i live.
created the past couple days. used beads from NYC.
writing should say “when the same story occurs again and again and again, the only people who would rather keep the calamitous ending the same are those who are one: insane, defined as stepping out of everyone else’s reality; two: those who will capitalize in the short term (convenient death); three: someone with a need for revenge and anger to survive; four: those millions and millions of ordinary people around the world who believe they can’t make a difference.” screwed up the last sentence, but oh well.